意味がないの人生

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楽しい事が全然ありません。友達たち　が　全部もう　遊んで　食べて　寝て　何でも　している　が　僕まだ大学に選びＣｏｕｒｓｅを心配しています。

ＳＰＭが終りました。しかし　少しｈｉｇｈの感じもない。

What? Who call u so Si Ai Bin go read d japanese words? Dun understand jiu dun understand lah~ ZZZZZZZ

Sienz... Doesnt even feel like holiday for me. I can't even enjoy a break since I am prematurely bugged with tertiary studies problems. Dun even feel like re-designing a wallpaper n layout 4 me blog.. life.. seems.. so.. meaningless..

The problem with ME is, I don't really have any interest in anything lest it has anything to do with.. the thing i'm interested in =_= & I like drawing. No engineer, lawyer, doctor, pharmacist or whatoever PROFESSIONS tat suits me.

So the only PROFESSION i can (choose?) is architecture? Its the only one tat has atleast a LITTLE bit to do with drawings. But hell, another problem arises: Heck I dont even know if tat stupid course would b wad i was lookin 4. Six years of studying n tons of bling bling to pay n u think telling evryone tat "oh.. I dont like architecture" at d end of the day is a funny joke? Not to mention the competitive nature in tat field, and everyone I came across (even the angmo) said tat archtecture is a hard one indeed.

My dear pa & ma, (if one day you two decided to learn to surf d net n happens to read my blog, no offence) they tell me tat architecture is prospective. I know they hope I'd take d course, even tho they'd say "go take whatver u like" now. I cant blame them for wanting me to take it can I? I'm the one in three children tat they love most n invest d most $$ onto. In the future they'd harap me to jaga them or sth lk tat.

But the doubts I have r stil vry high. Prospective would be thr, provided tat I can GRADUATE n SECURE A JOB. I dont even know if i'd b REALLY REALLY intrested. If i study for 3 yrs n find out tat "oh shit.. is terrible.. I dont like it" I'd b wasting parents' money n my youth. Even if I'd force myself to continue, it'd be form 4 n form 5 repeated all over again, studying science subjects tat I dont like n forcing myself to b at d top. N wad bout d fckin job opportunities wtf so many ppl takin the course

So I went to Taylor's office today to get an application form (tats y i couldnt get to sch in time =). The guy thr was helpful enuf.. altho he unintentionally added some more shits to my thoughts. Ofcourse like evryone else he said " u'll hav 2 b very very intrested to take d course, cuz thr reli alot hu walked d wrong path, n dropped out, n bla bla bla..."

N then my pa, incidentally told him tat I love to draw thing like manga. Walah~~ the guy introduced design courses to me. Designs.. DESIGNS!!!!! U can design anything, signboards advertisements, cartoons, all those visual stuffs.

Yea... I like tat... I like tat kind of stuff...

Downside? I'd not b called a PROFFESIONAL. Jobs r often unstable. Prospective, IF lucky. -$$$$$ jz when i finally found sth in wic i can use my talents..

*oh d irony~~~* *faints*

Why cant life jz b simple. (Sighs~ May I really envy you)

It's like money is the thing tat controls destiny, no more god.

Man... Pls lah my stupid brother.. If u duno how to study, learn pa's fren go Papua New Guinea thr do lumbering business, get urself nearly killed, n come bk n b the richest man in the family lah.... Sister oso lar.. u nt bad, study hard plz... WHY THE FUCK MUST ALL THE PRESSURE N RESPONSIBLITY REST ON ME~~~~~~~ aduh~~~~~~~~~

N when my pa n i was in the car jz now n a Jaguar passed by, I pointed out n said mockingly "oh.. if go study architecture, next time whn i come out will drive tat car right???"

sheesh~~

Now i cant get ABBA's Money-money-money out of my head zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Duh~~ Obviously d whole holiday is ruined. Kinda like the "road nt taken" thingy. Choose choose choose. I hope, atleast life in KL will b much more... *ok lets not expect too much* zzzzzzzzz

Porn.. I need some porn to unwind myself... BB.. zzzzzzzz