《说好的幸福呢》 x 《给我一首歌的时间》

說好的幸福呢

詞：方文山　曲：周杰倫

妳的繪畫凌亂著　在這個時刻

我想起噴泉旁的白鴿　甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯　我還愛妳呢

而妳斷斷續續唱著歌　假裝沒事了

時間過了　走了　愛情面臨選擇

妳冷了　倦了　我哭了

一開始的不快樂　妳用卡片手寫著

有些愛只給到這真的痛了

怎麼了　妳累了　說好的　幸福呢

我懂了　不說了　愛淡了　夢遠了

開心與不開心一一細數著妳在不捨

那些愛過的感覺都太深刻　我都還記得

妳不等了　說好的　幸福呢

我錯了　淚乾了　放手了　後悔了

只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著　要怎麼停呢

The girl is very pretty rite? ;P

《给我一首歌的时间》

zzzz Jay Chou dancing? I mata chehmeh? isnt d gal wearing lingerie?

煩死～～

媽的～ 以後除非我身家是算几乙几乙的，絕對不生孩子了～～
操他才好。。搞不好下一代掃地的都需要一個master還是PhD才能做。以後的人壓力大到不知道會怎樣～～ zzzzzzzzzzz
教育費，日常生活費，什麼鬼費狗吠都有。niama~~ 煩死煩死～～ 還什麼勁爭一大堆zzzzzzzzzz

AHHHHH

聽稻香安慰自己？？ （周杰倫有種～～專輯被洩露還敢延後五天發行～～）


對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡
隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑
鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要這麼容易就想放棄 就像我說的
追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了
為自己的人生鮮艷上色 先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧 功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機 現在終於飛回我手裡
所謂的那快樂 赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了 誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午後吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦 哦 陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡
隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑微微笑
小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑
鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好 （回家吧～～安心地去吧～～oohhh~~~~ -_-）

Pre-SPM Syndrome~~

Sigh... me frens all studying... Sigh... me stil online... playing... Sigh... me gonna die~~~~

Sejarah, n BC barely passes my red zone... Moral n bio stil hanging on d border...

Addmaths hah? Anything left of my morale was crushed by the "sacred virgin" in our sch zzzzzzzzzzzz

I've made up a list of subjects tat really requires luck: BM, BI, BC, PM, SEJ. Art stream subjects... stupidly subjective. I'm worried about d examiner's ability to grade my papers as much as I'm worried about MY own ability to answer those papers cirrectly XD. With the ever-changing marking schemes for PM, I'm not sure if evry teacher has d same idea of what we should write eh? wad IF.. just IF... d teacher tat marks my paper wants a totally difrent format frm our own teacher?

Same goes for those other subjective... subjects -_- Sheeesh n wad if on tat faithful day d examiner has menopause or testicle malfunction n decided to fail evry1?? wad d hell... (I heard bout some malay english teacher hu crossed out SOME words frm students' essay cuz d word were simply toooooooooooo hard 4 them to understand. wtf~~)

Bonus: N u aint gonna noe if they do dis kind of funny things to ur SPM papers r u? Die white white lor~~~~

When we were doin moral jz now thr was a question tat asked for d perayaan in Malaysia. Sumthing strucked me:I wonder if those IGNORANT (dun use d word dumbshit lah~ must b civilised) west malaysians noe what hari gawai is. I bet some of them wont even b botherin to check for it n'll jz giv u a big X Die white white~~~~ x2

Pressure evrywhr... apart frm those hu take me for granted (those like "aiyah sure at home studying hard 1" or those "wad? u scare wad? sure get gud result 1" ARGH I FUCKIN HATE THOSE KIND OF PPL) I stil hav my parents (n myself -_-) hu hope I'd get scholarship, bt 11A's seem like too far frm my reach now *mumble mumble*. Wad more, I'm drowned by d guilt tat my peers r all studying.. I'm still writing in my BLOG!!! WTF~~~~ HAHHAHHAHHA~

*going mad~~~

Ironically (can say lk dat gua~~)... After SPM ends.. I'd b lk, aimless.. evryone noes wad dey gonna do, whr dey goin... bt Im stil... blurr lah~~~~~~~ yawns~~ sighs~~~~~~~

Anyways... jz tot i'd drop an entry cuz im feelin a little sleepy oredi. I JUST STARTED to readjust my biological clock to make myself NOT sleepy in d afternoon~~ N hope i cant make it a habit to sleep early at nites :S

Seeing STARS

Was jz clicking random postsin wikipedia after I got a mood surge.. again.. (Elyssa gave me a CHE question, which I stupidly missinterpreted. I tot it wanted me to find d number of IRON(II) ions. It only wanted d TOTAL number of ions. N it caused me a whole nite sulkin cuz i couldnt solve it n couldnt get d answer frm Elyssa hu might b bz dreamin of William Beckett's baby)

AND... I just so happened to read about constellations. My sign Auarius has d fllowing traits:


strong-willed / stubborn (evryone noes~ *chuckles*) / obstinate
opinionated / conceited
far-sighted, visionary, revolutionary
original / innovative / inventive
Tolerant, unprejudiced and objective
Humane, humanitarian, altruistic
Idealistic, having high expectations (in love, in other ppl, in addmaths)
Friendly and sociable, however may single-out to recharge their batteries. (yalor sumtimes act emo)
Inconsistent, often shirking from personal commitment. Loyal in friendship.
Remote, detached and aloof, impersonal.
unemotional / cold
Devoted to their goals
Free-spirited, rebellious (always gives teachers high blood pressure~)
Outspoken, although may not reveal true feelings (hmmm...)
Intelligent, intellectual, curious and seeking mental challenge. Engaging.
Unpredictable (I'm crazy~ wad can I say)
Eccentric and unconventional, misunderstood (sobs?)
Enigmatic, magnetic
Progressive
Intuitive
Resentful, temperamental (self-explanatory~)
leading / trend setting

The highlighted characteristics... matches completely with my impression of myself (eh? thr's such thing? -_-) There's seven more characteristics tat I noe I have, bt highlighting them out for d public may seem...... like.... U get d idea~~~~ (or not -____-)

And there's more:

One type of Aquarius person can be shy, gentle, patient and more sensitive. The other type is more enthusiastic and exhibitionist.

I think I'm (partially) both... -_-

They despise lies and hypocrisy, and although rarely caught in a lie, may nevertheless subtly and cleverly manipulate what they say to give a wrong impression.

Reli speechless~~


Likes
Friendship • freedom • intellectual stimulation • camaraderie • surprises • companionship • feeling understood • emotional safety.(crave 4 it~)

The "Likes" part totally hit my bulls-eye... like 100%. Esp the bolded ones.



Dislikes
jealousy, possessiveness, control, ego plays, pointless meetings (SOME LEO meetings), narrow-mindedness, being ridiculed, routines, fighting/violence, inequality, **>>being taken for granted<<**.


When I saw what they had to write about d "Dislikes" part, I decided to copy evrything n post it on d blog~~~ I HATE being taken 4 granted.. esp in my academic skills.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Astrological_signs
Weird~ Go check d articles put in Wikipedia~ Search for ur constellation (provided tat ur not d type of person who's already crazy bout zodiac signs since puberty) n c if wad they hav matches what u r. I was like.. amazed by d accuracy (or mere coincidence? who knows? I'm no one to judge~~) of the characteristics described.

Capricorn??

I like this "clown" picture. Duno if he photoshopped himself or really had a make-up, but good work~~~ Looks like the typical "killer-clown" in those horror movies eh??

*disclaimer* For some folks out there this might be trivial. For those who, like me, upholds the principle of "no music = no life", you'll understand my plight XD XD XD




WEDNESDAY, OCTOBER 1st, 2008 - SUPPOSEDLY, CAPRICORN, Jay Chou's 2008 album, was leaked into the internet on September 28. Jun Kiat sms-ed me, I googled, found the torrent, downloaded, and played d songs n.... wth??

......11 tracks, never seen before in Jay Chou's albums up to date. (oh nvm, he was jz extra hardworkin dis time).

......Indian-music-themed songs. (yeah~ he changed his style again ^_^).

......A song entitled "女儿红" but doesnt hav even one bit of "chinese wind" music in it (ok startin to get weird o_O)

.......Two song I noticed the tunes n vocals were a little "off" (ps, kinda like when lobak singing high pitch songs in class, u can imagine XD) OmFg something wrong???

.......AND a bunch of songs with titles tat totally dont match with d content.

D more I listened my face turned from (^_^) to (-_-) to (o_O) to (O_O) to (@_@) n then to (+_+)

Thats wad ppl lk me hu refuses to buy original cd gets @_@~~

Forum posts everyway show controversial statements about the "leaked" songs. Some webs posted totally different song titles from the others. Some commented "FAKE!!!" while others said "TQ~~" (I noe everyone is totally clueless too~ everyone hav their own hypothesis :P)

I was startin to think lk, OMFG, FAKE SONGS??? TERTIPU? at first. Sum of my frens even told me d songs couldnt b real, cuz they suck. Gave me a "Triple-H"~~ (p.s Triple-H here means: Head-Hin-Hn... ya... lame... i noe -_-)

But then I realised sth... Hey, most of d songs beh bai ler~? N d voice is totally jay-chou-like. Mayb they just got d song titles scrambled up. But bottom-line: they're totally Jay-Chou standard songs, n if by 10/9 Jay Chou says "I never sung those craps" then I'd go OMFUCKING we hav a totally talented imposter who can mimic his voice so closely? Bah~~ Who knows~ whn d real deal comes out I'd cry out OMFG anyways~

Ohoho all the better if dis is fake, I'll get bonus "fake" songs n all new "official" songs. = _ =

Just one complaint. Stupid lah that "Katak hu Putus Cinta" song. Lame ler~~~ My 1st impression was a sad or romantic song lah y come out dis kinda gila song??! Kills my mood nia zz

Nice songs. Sum whacky (tat bodo frog song zzzzzz AHHHHHHHH!!!! MOOD KILLER), sum sad ballads, n one particular song tat pumps adrenaline into my blood~~

-Be thou truth or illusion, thy beauty is unquestioned-

Owh.. jz another drawing.. AGAIN???

Aiyah reli nth to write about lah... Things r either too boring, trivial, sensitive, or personal :p

Anyways... Jz wanna brag to Sze Ting tat I finished drawing "KTA's Target" in 5Atom blog... In ONE nite~~~~ 5 hours~~~~ XD

(ya... Sum crazily talented guy took 36 hours to finish drawing d same drawing... But the result n details was way cool, tho~ reli macam d real thing, tho~~ I dun hav tat kind of patience tho~~ cincai cincai as long as d shape is thr enuf liao... tho~~~ :S )

Wakakakaka~~~ Bong Bong Bong Bong Bong~~ (rubber ball bouncing de sound) Can remove tat "KTA's Target" in 5Atom liaw~~ If give ppl c tiok they tink me c-ai-bin ah~~~~

Ah Wei~~~ OOOOHHHH Ah Wei~~~~~ Ah Wei oiiii~~~ I use one 8B pencil only~~~ lalala~~~~

I like d hair... But hate the sword... Macam bengkok jor....

Nope. He couldnt sleep. Not tonight.

He never thought it would take such a heavy toll on his life. Obviously he overestimated what his mind is capable of. He thought it was just gonna be a short & sharp pain n tat would be all. Sucks to be'em. He was wrong~ The memories kept haunting him like ghosts~

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

U see, there's this wee little problem in his retarded brain he'd been tryin to solve - he still couldnt forget her. After all this time.

Bah, what would people think of him, his obsession. Who cares. Nothing mattered anymore. It was (& still is) killing him. He had to find somewhere to blast all his emotion off. This was the only option he had. (wad? confessin in a blog?)

He remembers tat he said something like "no matter what decision he'd make, it'll still hurt'em" Oh c'mon~ He didnt expect tat the effect would last THIS long. He thought his life would be so occupied by studying n drawing n playing. He'd indulge himself in all the fun he could squeeze out, from school from friends from playing from drawing from photographing from eating from flirting from WATEVA. When tat didnt work he thought he could forget just by tellin other people he'd forget it. He thought he'd be okay if he'd just be his usual whacky n cheeky self. But at the end of the day... well you can imagine what happens at the end of the day.

He didnt noe wad hit him. He just tot he shouldnt cower behind his false smiles and acting anymore. Yep, hiding it any longer would just prolong the torment done to himself. He couldnt take it anymore. He doesnt expect anyone to understand. After all, they're just not him, no matter how well they claim they know him, they're just not him.

So here goes~

HIS カンジ FOR HER NEVER CHANGED. JUST LIKE TAT DUMBASS SONNET-18~ HE'D WONDER NOW AND THEN IF HE'D MADE THE タダシクナイ CHOICE BACK THEN. HE'D WONDER IF SHE'D ALREADY ワスレマシタ EVERYTHING. HE'D WANTED HER TO KNOW HOW イタイ IT STILL IS, HOW クルシイ IT IS TO GO THROUGH THOSE DAYS. HE'D BEG TO BE GIVEN A　セカンド　チャンス. But he knows too well of what'll d answer b if he'd asked anyway~

Shit... sorry!

Posting some shit like this might be offending to someone. He knew he'd be selfish by pullin sumthing like this. But all he wants is to seek some mental comfort. He has nowhere else to go to.

He wants advice. Some USEFULL ones. Things like "don't pull mud bring water (direct translation to chinese, pls~)" or "sheesh get over it u pathetic guy jz forget it~" couldnt help him. So he's wondering if thr's any wise guy out HERE tat can supply him with something tat can put him to REST (yea REST)

Half his life is in a mess (dude, told you not to be so rash tat time~ serves you rite~) He knows his progress will be close to zero as long as he cant get over with it. What? You think he's some kinda iron man? He just a normal human with humanly-human-mentality. Alright put it straight, he admits he's just a guy who cant even overcome a mental obstacle like this. He couldnt. Cant. He needs outside help. Cant do it alone. And he needs a solution to this problem. ASAP. Any helpful comments please?

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THIS IS ONE LAME POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But hey.. wads d use of creating a blog if he still had to think of what other people think about what he writes on it? No no NO ONE SHALL CONTROL WHAT HE WANTS TO POST. It's HIS OWN DOMAIN.. MAN!! He's tired of acting all-matured-&-adult and be considerate n sensitive about other people or the GREATER GOOD. For THIS once, he just wants to be a KID, and write whatever he wants in his BLOG. MAN?! He's needs help!!!!!!! Other people might be able to stand something like this (what are they, robots?), but he cant. Its too much a plight for him to take on.

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Sheeshh it feels much better now. Man.. I cant believe you're still reading this.