Singapore

Ummm... went to the FINE city... -__-
Dun wanna elaborate too much. But I did take lotsa pics. Shud reli get a phlog one of these days.

No fabian, din take pictures of liang moi. Kena saman later.

- 去新加坡看的三样东西： 看美女，看价钱，看时间。-

Their foods. ( these r the colorful ones)

Sushi~~ Sashimi~~

Changi Airport. No we only took a cab to Singapore. Visited d airport cuz it was getting really boring thr.

Ahhh.... Waterfront.

Umm.. The famous.. Merlion.. Wads so special...

I was up on d Singapore Flyer

Raffle's Point Shopping wad? Duno,. Forgot. Too many shopping malls in sg.

Suntec

Eh.. Lobak's frens~~ at nite safari

Three people?? JOELBO??!!!!! AT SG!!!! JOELBO!!!!!!

Ahh... these r d dolls tat can move at nite n kill u in ur slp???

Ohya... went to A shop that sells evrytHing about cosplay.

Yuna costume. Cant were it unless ur D cup or larger~~ ;p

Jigoku Shoujo's uniform. Cute~~

Sentosa. Met an indon chinese girl here. Its sad they dun even speak chinese in indon :S

Sound of the Sea

Ohkay now im convinced tat d world still nid engineers.

Replica merlion

Beach

Christmas in the air~ Orchard Road~~

Ok liao bb. No more. Shoo~~ Going KL soon. Sigh..

Greatest yet?

Ahem... I don't usually post (n show-off) my art here bt I had the urge to "hang" these pictures in the room (this room, FYI). Anyways, They are all (errr???) themed on... love. Now why did I do that :s Characters were taken from, yours truely,the Final Fantasy and Kingdom Hearts, properties of Square Enix. (owh wad the crap~~ XD)

-Tidus & Yuna-

The couple who, unconventionally, got a not-so-happy ending in FFX. Broke up in the end cuz Tidus was apparently a thousand-years-old illusion... Dating with a ghost.. Now THATS fresh~
-Sora & Kairi- Not too popular, from the Kingdom Hearts series. I wonder if they were EVER officially a pair :S

-Kairi &.... Namine(pronounce na-mi-neh)-
O_O??? Wad, mayb they're lesbian~ macam Ah Bong.


-Squall & Rinoa-
Nostalgic~!!! From FFXIII, Squall Leonhart + Rinoa Heartilly!! The typical romance fantasy~ I played this game three times during primary school. Childhood memories. Cant even find anymore FFVIII game discs now T_T anymone have any??? Lend to me~~~

N i personally tink tat first one is da best~~~

Commercial time -__- click HERE >>> http://firewyvern91.deviantart.com/ if u wanna see more~~ XD

意味がないの人生

もう長い時間　ブログをＵｐｄａｔｅしません　ね

楽しい事が全然ありません。友達たち　が　全部もう　遊んで　食べて　寝て　何でも　している　が　僕まだ大学に選びＣｏｕｒｓｅを心配しています。

ＳＰＭが終りました。しかし　少しｈｉｇｈの感じもない。

What? Who call u so Si Ai Bin go read d japanese words? Dun understand jiu dun understand lah~ ZZZZZZZ

Sienz... Doesnt even feel like holiday for me. I can't even enjoy a break since I am prematurely bugged with tertiary studies problems. Dun even feel like re-designing a wallpaper n layout 4 me blog.. life.. seems.. so.. meaningless..

The problem with ME is, I don't really have any interest in anything lest it has anything to do with.. the thing i'm interested in =_= & I like drawing. No engineer, lawyer, doctor, pharmacist or whatoever PROFESSIONS tat suits me.

So the only PROFESSION i can (choose?) is architecture? Its the only one tat has atleast a LITTLE bit to do with drawings. But hell, another problem arises: Heck I dont even know if tat stupid course would b wad i was lookin 4. Six years of studying n tons of bling bling to pay n u think telling evryone tat "oh.. I dont like architecture" at d end of the day is a funny joke? Not to mention the competitive nature in tat field, and everyone I came across (even the angmo) said tat archtecture is a hard one indeed.

My dear pa & ma, (if one day you two decided to learn to surf d net n happens to read my blog, no offence) they tell me tat architecture is prospective. I know they hope I'd take d course, even tho they'd say "go take whatver u like" now. I cant blame them for wanting me to take it can I? I'm the one in three children tat they love most n invest d most $$ onto. In the future they'd harap me to jaga them or sth lk tat.

But the doubts I have r stil vry high. Prospective would be thr, provided tat I can GRADUATE n SECURE A JOB. I dont even know if i'd b REALLY REALLY intrested. If i study for 3 yrs n find out tat "oh shit.. is terrible.. I dont like it" I'd b wasting parents' money n my youth. Even if I'd force myself to continue, it'd be form 4 n form 5 repeated all over again, studying science subjects tat I dont like n forcing myself to b at d top. N wad bout d fckin job opportunities wtf so many ppl takin the course

So I went to Taylor's office today to get an application form (tats y i couldnt get to sch in time =). The guy thr was helpful enuf.. altho he unintentionally added some more shits to my thoughts. Ofcourse like evryone else he said " u'll hav 2 b very very intrested to take d course, cuz thr reli alot hu walked d wrong path, n dropped out, n bla bla bla..."

N then my pa, incidentally told him tat I love to draw thing like manga. Walah~~ the guy introduced design courses to me. Designs.. DESIGNS!!!!! U can design anything, signboards advertisements, cartoons, all those visual stuffs.

Yea... I like tat... I like tat kind of stuff...

Downside? I'd not b called a PROFFESIONAL. Jobs r often unstable. Prospective, IF lucky. -$$$$$ jz when i finally found sth in wic i can use my talents..

*oh d irony~~~* *faints*

Why cant life jz b simple. (Sighs~ May I really envy you)

It's like money is the thing tat controls destiny, no more god.

Man... Pls lah my stupid brother.. If u duno how to study, learn pa's fren go Papua New Guinea thr do lumbering business, get urself nearly killed, n come bk n b the richest man in the family lah.... Sister oso lar.. u nt bad, study hard plz... WHY THE FUCK MUST ALL THE PRESSURE N RESPONSIBLITY REST ON ME~~~~~~~ aduh~~~~~~~~~

N when my pa n i was in the car jz now n a Jaguar passed by, I pointed out n said mockingly "oh.. if go study architecture, next time whn i come out will drive tat car right???"

sheesh~~

Now i cant get ABBA's Money-money-money out of my head zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Duh~~ Obviously d whole holiday is ruined. Kinda like the "road nt taken" thingy. Choose choose choose. I hope, atleast life in KL will b much more... *ok lets not expect too much* zzzzzzzzz

Porn.. I need some porn to unwind myself... BB.. zzzzzzzz

Sejarah vs History

How many of us actually have time to read blogs dis time of the year? LoL.

History is really quite confusing. People often manipulate the facts in their words so that the results will seem appealing to the audience. And I'm not saying what I have here are facts. They are just for mere reading pleasure ^_^

Anyways, I was doing some searching in wikipedia n found something like this:

Orang Asli in Malaysia.
They are divided into three main tribal groups – Semang (negrito), Senoi, and Proto-Malay (Aboriginal Malay).

I remembered studying about a certain group calling themselves BUMIPUTRA. One of their early ancestors was a refugee from Palembang... Hmm sound familiar... Bt i cant seem to remember d name~~ XD They just happened to arrive some centuries before other immigrants and they claim they are the rightful owners of the land. They CLAIM they have the same RIGHTS as the REAL aborigines. Cute. After they got what they wanted from the Brits, the REAL aborigines one the other hand, were (and are still) the ones who remained poor and uncivilised

What more, If you've learnt sejarah, you should have come across the assasination of J.W.W. Birch. The Malaysian History description was: JWW Birch dibunuh kerana mempermainkan adat-istiadat tempatan dan menghapuskan sistem sosial melayu.

THIS IS THEIR "SISTEM SOSIAL":

Slave raids into Orang Asli settlements were quite common feature back in the 18th and 19th centuries. These slave-raiders were mainly local Malays and Bataks, who considered the Orang Asli as 'kafirs', 'non-humans', 'savages' and 'jungle-beasts.' The modus operandi was basically to swoop down a settlement and then kill off all the adult men. Women and children were captured alive as they are 'easier to tame.' The captives Orang Asli slaves were sold off or given to local rulers and chieftains to gain their favour. Slaves trade soon developed and even continued into the present century despite the official abolition of all forms of slavery in 1884. The derogatory term sakai is used to refer to the Orang Asli until the middle of the 20th century meant slave or dependent. Many of the elders Orang Asli still remember this sad period of their history, and they detest being called Sakai.

DATO' MAHARAJALELA, supposedly the hero of Perak, was a local cheif involved in SLAVE-TRADE. He did the things mentioned above for a living. Sounds HEROIC enuf ^_^ JWW Birch outlawed slavery in Perak and gets killed by a mob of SLAVE-TRADERS.

He was merely defending helpless people who were treated like animals by the pig-heads.

Are these HEROES any different from CONQUISTADORES who crushed the Inca n Mayan n made them slaves? Are they different from the COLONISTS who invaded Afica and made Africans slaves? And they have the face to call themselves "the rightful owner of this land".

On second though... They ARE different... Technology wise. People were already using gunpowder when they were fidling wif keris, blow-pipes and lembings. Malaysia Boleh~~

Whats more.. They associate themselves with the middle-eastern civilisations. MY FOOT. MELACAN EMPIRE WAS NO WHERE NEAR THE GLORY OF THOSE MUSLIM EMPIRES IN THE ARAB. THE ARABS, i.e. SALADIN, WERE THE ONES WHO FENDED OFF THE CRUSADES AND FOUGHT THE ARMY OF COMBINED EUROPEAN NATIONS. THE OTTOMAN TURK WAS THE LARGEST AND LONGEST LASTING MUSLIM EMPIRE. THEY EVEN FOUGHT IN WORLD-WAR I.

They just fled... helplessly... when the Portugese came. They were thrown around like used toy by the Portugese n Brits n Dutches. When the Japs came, SOME GUY from KMM (Kesatuan Melayu Muda) yea the guy whose picture makes his big nose look hideously artificial, became the Japs' lapdog. Hehe jz because they have one thing in common with the arabs (who were descendants of legendary civilisations), they think they can save their own face and make themselves look great by kissing some people's ass in their History Textbooks.

ahem~~

Anyways, mysterious term "sakai" tat we once adored in our childhood and used to mock each other... I guess u noe wad it means now eh??

Life Fate Destiny?

Plan your life.. Is that a good thing after all? Some of us made plans for their life, high plans, great plans, they live by their plans.

In another way, they doomed their fate.

I mean, its not bad to have a plan for life. It's just that.. it locks yourself from exploring life to its fullest, don't you think so? You'd be so obsessed with living up to ur plans to ur own expectations that u neglect the very reason U were given life - enjoy life itself.

I remembered writing an essay on preseverance some years before (errr mayb it was d last year bt heck i 4got~). I remembered saying "the world changes, people changes, anything can change just in a night". That was the whole point- the world changes, but our plans for life were made at a stagnant moment in time. You CANNOT insist to have everything go as you planned. In the end you'll have nothing.

Like, why do we have to insist that our life go the way we want it to? If you failed to do something, maybe you're not meant to do that thing. Maybe you're meant for other things in life, great things, things that you failed to notice since you were so obsessed with chasing what you cant. The point is, life is so full of possiblities. If you cant have something, just get other stuffs. You cant have everything... that would be like... so not "life". Try out other options, cuz they're so many things to do in life. Especially since you have the resources to do it.

I want to be a mangaka, a cartoonist, but too bad, sucks for me, I wasnt born in Japan or USA. Malaysia's cartoon n animation industry is like... 50 years behind other places (not like Malaysia is advanced in anything but rasuah). Well, unless some of u out there knows where I can reaally make a living out of drawing hentai and other cartoons. Tell me if u do~~

So what.. I tink I'll hav a go on architecture (guys, to be frank, I dont really feel any intrest for architecture, but its the closest thing to drawing).

And palmistry and Zodiacs? Cut it out. PLEASE. I've gotta say im impressed by the accuracy zodiacs described my characteristics, but thats all. I don't think I should live the way my star sign says I'll be living. I don't think I should fear the bad things said to me when my frens read my palm (it said, I'd die a single. I'd be poor or something like that. To sum things up its full of misfortunes). Even if its true (yea im very quite unfortunate -_-), I dont hink I'll be like, oh, my zodiac says that I hate Taurus and Libra people (exp only), so even tho i hav a gud fren who's a Taurus, I'll start to hate d fren. Totally NOT practical~~ I might eventually meet my destiny (omg Im really gonna die single? T_T), but I wont INTENTIONALLY follow every single step it says I have to take. (So wad if I'll die single? Atleast I'm trying to find a girlfriend. If in d future really no wife, I'll get a robot maid or sth~ If no sex, I'll just have sex in d brothel until i cant do it anymore~ XD)

I- H-A-V-E- C-O-N-T-R-O-L-. (keep tellin urself that~ ^_^)

We were born to enjoy life as much as we can. But that doesnt mean we throw away our responsiblities lar ;p

I think, we shouldnt be too hard on ourselves. I think, we dont have to follow what everyone does. Everyone were born with flaws, and flaws are what make everyone unique. We should be unique. It's normal. Being good in everything is damn freaky. Dreaming of being good in everything is damn childish.

《说好的幸福呢》 x 《给我一首歌的时间》

說好的幸福呢

詞：方文山　曲：周杰倫

妳的繪畫凌亂著　在這個時刻

我想起噴泉旁的白鴿　甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯　我還愛妳呢

而妳斷斷續續唱著歌　假裝沒事了

時間過了　走了　愛情面臨選擇

妳冷了　倦了　我哭了

一開始的不快樂　妳用卡片手寫著

有些愛只給到這真的痛了

怎麼了　妳累了　說好的　幸福呢

我懂了　不說了　愛淡了　夢遠了

開心與不開心一一細數著妳在不捨

那些愛過的感覺都太深刻　我都還記得

妳不等了　說好的　幸福呢

我錯了　淚乾了　放手了　後悔了

只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著　要怎麼停呢

The girl is very pretty rite? ;P

《给我一首歌的时间》

zzzz Jay Chou dancing? I mata chehmeh? isnt d gal wearing lingerie?

煩死～～

媽的～ 以後除非我身家是算几乙几乙的，絕對不生孩子了～～
操他才好。。搞不好下一代掃地的都需要一個master還是PhD才能做。以後的人壓力大到不知道會怎樣～～ zzzzzzzzzzz
教育費，日常生活費，什麼鬼費狗吠都有。niama~~ 煩死煩死～～ 還什麼勁爭一大堆zzzzzzzzzz

AHHHHH

聽稻香安慰自己？？ （周杰倫有種～～專輯被洩露還敢延後五天發行～～）


對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡
隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑
鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要這麼容易就想放棄 就像我說的
追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了
為自己的人生鮮艷上色 先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧 功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機 現在終於飛回我手裡
所謂的那快樂 赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了 誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午後吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦 哦 陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡
隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑微微笑
小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑
鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好 （回家吧～～安心地去吧～～oohhh~~~~ -_-）

Pre-SPM Syndrome~~

Sigh... me frens all studying... Sigh... me stil online... playing... Sigh... me gonna die~~~~

Sejarah, n BC barely passes my red zone... Moral n bio stil hanging on d border...

Addmaths hah? Anything left of my morale was crushed by the "sacred virgin" in our sch zzzzzzzzzzzz

I've made up a list of subjects tat really requires luck: BM, BI, BC, PM, SEJ. Art stream subjects... stupidly subjective. I'm worried about d examiner's ability to grade my papers as much as I'm worried about MY own ability to answer those papers cirrectly XD. With the ever-changing marking schemes for PM, I'm not sure if evry teacher has d same idea of what we should write eh? wad IF.. just IF... d teacher tat marks my paper wants a totally difrent format frm our own teacher?

Same goes for those other subjective... subjects -_- Sheeesh n wad if on tat faithful day d examiner has menopause or testicle malfunction n decided to fail evry1?? wad d hell... (I heard bout some malay english teacher hu crossed out SOME words frm students' essay cuz d word were simply toooooooooooo hard 4 them to understand. wtf~~)

Bonus: N u aint gonna noe if they do dis kind of funny things to ur SPM papers r u? Die white white lor~~~~

When we were doin moral jz now thr was a question tat asked for d perayaan in Malaysia. Sumthing strucked me:I wonder if those IGNORANT (dun use d word dumbshit lah~ must b civilised) west malaysians noe what hari gawai is. I bet some of them wont even b botherin to check for it n'll jz giv u a big X Die white white~~~~ x2

Pressure evrywhr... apart frm those hu take me for granted (those like "aiyah sure at home studying hard 1" or those "wad? u scare wad? sure get gud result 1" ARGH I FUCKIN HATE THOSE KIND OF PPL) I stil hav my parents (n myself -_-) hu hope I'd get scholarship, bt 11A's seem like too far frm my reach now *mumble mumble*. Wad more, I'm drowned by d guilt tat my peers r all studying.. I'm still writing in my BLOG!!! WTF~~~~ HAHHAHHAHHA~

*going mad~~~

Ironically (can say lk dat gua~~)... After SPM ends.. I'd b lk, aimless.. evryone noes wad dey gonna do, whr dey goin... bt Im stil... blurr lah~~~~~~~ yawns~~ sighs~~~~~~~

Anyways... jz tot i'd drop an entry cuz im feelin a little sleepy oredi. I JUST STARTED to readjust my biological clock to make myself NOT sleepy in d afternoon~~ N hope i cant make it a habit to sleep early at nites :S

Seeing STARS

Was jz clicking random postsin wikipedia after I got a mood surge.. again.. (Elyssa gave me a CHE question, which I stupidly missinterpreted. I tot it wanted me to find d number of IRON(II) ions. It only wanted d TOTAL number of ions. N it caused me a whole nite sulkin cuz i couldnt solve it n couldnt get d answer frm Elyssa hu might b bz dreamin of William Beckett's baby)

AND... I just so happened to read about constellations. My sign Auarius has d fllowing traits:


strong-willed / stubborn (evryone noes~ *chuckles*) / obstinate
opinionated / conceited
far-sighted, visionary, revolutionary
original / innovative / inventive
Tolerant, unprejudiced and objective
Humane, humanitarian, altruistic
Idealistic, having high expectations (in love, in other ppl, in addmaths)
Friendly and sociable, however may single-out to recharge their batteries. (yalor sumtimes act emo)
Inconsistent, often shirking from personal commitment. Loyal in friendship.
Remote, detached and aloof, impersonal.
unemotional / cold
Devoted to their goals
Free-spirited, rebellious (always gives teachers high blood pressure~)
Outspoken, although may not reveal true feelings (hmmm...)
Intelligent, intellectual, curious and seeking mental challenge. Engaging.
Unpredictable (I'm crazy~ wad can I say)
Eccentric and unconventional, misunderstood (sobs?)
Enigmatic, magnetic
Progressive
Intuitive
Resentful, temperamental (self-explanatory~)
leading / trend setting

The highlighted characteristics... matches completely with my impression of myself (eh? thr's such thing? -_-) There's seven more characteristics tat I noe I have, bt highlighting them out for d public may seem...... like.... U get d idea~~~~ (or not -____-)

And there's more:

One type of Aquarius person can be shy, gentle, patient and more sensitive. The other type is more enthusiastic and exhibitionist.

I think I'm (partially) both... -_-

They despise lies and hypocrisy, and although rarely caught in a lie, may nevertheless subtly and cleverly manipulate what they say to give a wrong impression.

Reli speechless~~


Likes
Friendship • freedom • intellectual stimulation • camaraderie • surprises • companionship • feeling understood • emotional safety.(crave 4 it~)

The "Likes" part totally hit my bulls-eye... like 100%. Esp the bolded ones.



Dislikes
jealousy, possessiveness, control, ego plays, pointless meetings (SOME LEO meetings), narrow-mindedness, being ridiculed, routines, fighting/violence, inequality, **>>being taken for granted<<**.


When I saw what they had to write about d "Dislikes" part, I decided to copy evrything n post it on d blog~~~ I HATE being taken 4 granted.. esp in my academic skills.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Astrological_signs
Weird~ Go check d articles put in Wikipedia~ Search for ur constellation (provided tat ur not d type of person who's already crazy bout zodiac signs since puberty) n c if wad they hav matches what u r. I was like.. amazed by d accuracy (or mere coincidence? who knows? I'm no one to judge~~) of the characteristics described.

Capricorn??

I like this "clown" picture. Duno if he photoshopped himself or really had a make-up, but good work~~~ Looks like the typical "killer-clown" in those horror movies eh??

*disclaimer* For some folks out there this might be trivial. For those who, like me, upholds the principle of "no music = no life", you'll understand my plight XD XD XD




WEDNESDAY, OCTOBER 1st, 2008 - SUPPOSEDLY, CAPRICORN, Jay Chou's 2008 album, was leaked into the internet on September 28. Jun Kiat sms-ed me, I googled, found the torrent, downloaded, and played d songs n.... wth??

......11 tracks, never seen before in Jay Chou's albums up to date. (oh nvm, he was jz extra hardworkin dis time).

......Indian-music-themed songs. (yeah~ he changed his style again ^_^).

......A song entitled "女儿红" but doesnt hav even one bit of "chinese wind" music in it (ok startin to get weird o_O)

.......Two song I noticed the tunes n vocals were a little "off" (ps, kinda like when lobak singing high pitch songs in class, u can imagine XD) OmFg something wrong???

.......AND a bunch of songs with titles tat totally dont match with d content.

D more I listened my face turned from (^_^) to (-_-) to (o_O) to (O_O) to (@_@) n then to (+_+)

Thats wad ppl lk me hu refuses to buy original cd gets @_@~~

Forum posts everyway show controversial statements about the "leaked" songs. Some webs posted totally different song titles from the others. Some commented "FAKE!!!" while others said "TQ~~" (I noe everyone is totally clueless too~ everyone hav their own hypothesis :P)

I was startin to think lk, OMFG, FAKE SONGS??? TERTIPU? at first. Sum of my frens even told me d songs couldnt b real, cuz they suck. Gave me a "Triple-H"~~ (p.s Triple-H here means: Head-Hin-Hn... ya... lame... i noe -_-)

But then I realised sth... Hey, most of d songs beh bai ler~? N d voice is totally jay-chou-like. Mayb they just got d song titles scrambled up. But bottom-line: they're totally Jay-Chou standard songs, n if by 10/9 Jay Chou says "I never sung those craps" then I'd go OMFUCKING we hav a totally talented imposter who can mimic his voice so closely? Bah~~ Who knows~ whn d real deal comes out I'd cry out OMFG anyways~

Ohoho all the better if dis is fake, I'll get bonus "fake" songs n all new "official" songs. = _ =

Just one complaint. Stupid lah that "Katak hu Putus Cinta" song. Lame ler~~~ My 1st impression was a sad or romantic song lah y come out dis kinda gila song??! Kills my mood nia zz

Nice songs. Sum whacky (tat bodo frog song zzzzzz AHHHHHHHH!!!! MOOD KILLER), sum sad ballads, n one particular song tat pumps adrenaline into my blood~~

-Be thou truth or illusion, thy beauty is unquestioned-

Owh.. jz another drawing.. AGAIN???

Aiyah reli nth to write about lah... Things r either too boring, trivial, sensitive, or personal :p

Anyways... Jz wanna brag to Sze Ting tat I finished drawing "KTA's Target" in 5Atom blog... In ONE nite~~~~ 5 hours~~~~ XD

(ya... Sum crazily talented guy took 36 hours to finish drawing d same drawing... But the result n details was way cool, tho~ reli macam d real thing, tho~~ I dun hav tat kind of patience tho~~ cincai cincai as long as d shape is thr enuf liao... tho~~~ :S )

Wakakakaka~~~ Bong Bong Bong Bong Bong~~ (rubber ball bouncing de sound) Can remove tat "KTA's Target" in 5Atom liaw~~ If give ppl c tiok they tink me c-ai-bin ah~~~~

Ah Wei~~~ OOOOHHHH Ah Wei~~~~~ Ah Wei oiiii~~~ I use one 8B pencil only~~~ lalala~~~~

I like d hair... But hate the sword... Macam bengkok jor....

Nope. He couldnt sleep. Not tonight.

He never thought it would take such a heavy toll on his life. Obviously he overestimated what his mind is capable of. He thought it was just gonna be a short & sharp pain n tat would be all. Sucks to be'em. He was wrong~ The memories kept haunting him like ghosts~

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

U see, there's this wee little problem in his retarded brain he'd been tryin to solve - he still couldnt forget her. After all this time.

Bah, what would people think of him, his obsession. Who cares. Nothing mattered anymore. It was (& still is) killing him. He had to find somewhere to blast all his emotion off. This was the only option he had. (wad? confessin in a blog?)

He remembers tat he said something like "no matter what decision he'd make, it'll still hurt'em" Oh c'mon~ He didnt expect tat the effect would last THIS long. He thought his life would be so occupied by studying n drawing n playing. He'd indulge himself in all the fun he could squeeze out, from school from friends from playing from drawing from photographing from eating from flirting from WATEVA. When tat didnt work he thought he could forget just by tellin other people he'd forget it. He thought he'd be okay if he'd just be his usual whacky n cheeky self. But at the end of the day... well you can imagine what happens at the end of the day.

He didnt noe wad hit him. He just tot he shouldnt cower behind his false smiles and acting anymore. Yep, hiding it any longer would just prolong the torment done to himself. He couldnt take it anymore. He doesnt expect anyone to understand. After all, they're just not him, no matter how well they claim they know him, they're just not him.

So here goes~

HIS カンジ FOR HER NEVER CHANGED. JUST LIKE TAT DUMBASS SONNET-18~ HE'D WONDER NOW AND THEN IF HE'D MADE THE タダシクナイ CHOICE BACK THEN. HE'D WONDER IF SHE'D ALREADY ワスレマシタ EVERYTHING. HE'D WANTED HER TO KNOW HOW イタイ IT STILL IS, HOW クルシイ IT IS TO GO THROUGH THOSE DAYS. HE'D BEG TO BE GIVEN A　セカンド　チャンス. But he knows too well of what'll d answer b if he'd asked anyway~

Shit... sorry!

Posting some shit like this might be offending to someone. He knew he'd be selfish by pullin sumthing like this. But all he wants is to seek some mental comfort. He has nowhere else to go to.

He wants advice. Some USEFULL ones. Things like "don't pull mud bring water (direct translation to chinese, pls~)" or "sheesh get over it u pathetic guy jz forget it~" couldnt help him. So he's wondering if thr's any wise guy out HERE tat can supply him with something tat can put him to REST (yea REST)

Half his life is in a mess (dude, told you not to be so rash tat time~ serves you rite~) He knows his progress will be close to zero as long as he cant get over with it. What? You think he's some kinda iron man? He just a normal human with humanly-human-mentality. Alright put it straight, he admits he's just a guy who cant even overcome a mental obstacle like this. He couldnt. Cant. He needs outside help. Cant do it alone. And he needs a solution to this problem. ASAP. Any helpful comments please?

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THIS IS ONE LAME POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But hey.. wads d use of creating a blog if he still had to think of what other people think about what he writes on it? No no NO ONE SHALL CONTROL WHAT HE WANTS TO POST. It's HIS OWN DOMAIN.. MAN!! He's tired of acting all-matured-&-adult and be considerate n sensitive about other people or the GREATER GOOD. For THIS once, he just wants to be a KID, and write whatever he wants in his BLOG. MAN?! He's needs help!!!!!!! Other people might be able to stand something like this (what are they, robots?), but he cant. Its too much a plight for him to take on.

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Sheeshh it feels much better now. Man.. I cant believe you're still reading this.

I cant believe I made this too.... O_O

Oreo Ice-cream. = = ( by d time i managed to take a photo of it it was already half eaten~ )

Error 404 Webpage Cannot be Found

Spyware.. Im sure everyone was sick of it (until those anti-spywares came) for ruining your computers.

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They take up space in your computer, they do some damages to it, and makes ur system 要死不死. Unlike those hardcore virus, they dont fuck ur pc up like there's no tomorrow. They just appear n cause little problems to kacau-kacau, make u pekchek once in awhile. Not to mention theyr very hard to delete... (nabeh... got ppl reli try to delete it by using 'dlt' button? =_=)

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It comes back. again n again, just to haunt you...

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Craps, somethings in life are just the the same. No matter how u try to kick it out from your memory, it just keeps comin back (sort of like RavMon?) to occupy needless space in ur hard drive. They pop up now n then to annoy n disrupt ur concentration, bt u're never lk, gonna die from it. They just make your life harder~ If u cant erase it, u live under its mercy until u do.

Don't get me wrong. Nt goin sentimental or wad. The only words tat can describe it is "pissed" and "annoyed". No more. Pissed that someone like ME gets affected by these trivial matters.

Annoyed that I have to live with it n 吞下这股怨.

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-Fate. You can either shut up and live with it, or change it to your likings.-

Yea easily said. They didnt define "change" or tell u what prices u havta pay to "change".

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Whr r the anti-spywares whn u need'em? I want that stupid corrupted data out of my

computer~ ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

放假！

考完試 放假咯～

Well.. ok I totally fucked up me best subjects (maths, english, chemistry) bt thk lady luck my physics was.... satisfactory~~~ Nah, al I can say is, gotta try harder next one!!! ITS DA BIG FISH NEXT UP!!!!

給考試（跟我一樣XD）不順利 而很擔心SPM的人們：別give up~ 考不好，只是給你機會從錯誤中學習、改進！

其實我覺得學書的方法，每個人都不同。就不懂有的老師，眼光就是那麼淺陋，一定要學生照著他的方法去做。練習固然要做，但是給學生做再多的練習，學生從中領悟不到什麼，也只是像放個屁而已～～～

Learning is bout understanding!!! NOT memorizing every shit they put into da book!!!

我很在意，也很強調，讀書一定要會“懂”。

八月十六號了...... Our death sentence is nearing Form 5 STUDENTS!!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!! Hey... stop... don't u realise sth? Our schooling days are almost over too, u noe? Before long, we'll b like ejaculated sperm, spreading everywhere n in every directions (ok mayb its NOT d best discription XD) but ahem.. the point is.. zzzz u get me.. the end is near....

The good thing is we're goona leave tat shitty sch.

But well... Jz do wateva u stil hvnt done in school, like giving a gal from the class next door (XD) a birthday present on a fine Friday = = . Three more months n MAYB.. jz MAYB.. thr wont b any chance to do it in ur life ever again (bummers, u mite regret it 4 da rest or ur life eh~) *winks* . Unlike in primary 6, we dont have any extra two months in sch after da big test ohh~~~~

Cheers to Elyssa who's gonna do a National Geographic special episode entitled: The Last Days of 5Atom 2008~~~ Go~~ capture sum footage that'll make everyone cry in front of their grandchildren when we watch ur vids n pics in year 2050 XD

颩淚吧～～～～

Thrs only one thing buzzing on my head~ I dun get the point of "stealing ppl's idea" for making our final year mementos n RACING to see which class is more creative n glamourous... I mean, sure the idea might hv came out frm our class 1st bt, hey wads important is 紀念價值和背后藏著的意義，no? As long as we have sth that will remind us in d far future that we were once the penghuni of d most FEARED (for teachers) n SCARY (still, for teachers) n HAOLIAN (so said the teachers) class in SMK JALAN ARANG!!!! 5ATOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yup, Im talkin bout sth lk dis:

http://www.5atom2008.blogspot.com/

So here... Our newborn class-blog ~exclusively~ 2008 Atom. Credits to Elyssa Tan for takin d trouble to set up d blog while someone was snoozing n snoring when she asked him 4 help (= =)

Sheesh... N whens d newpaper namelist for PLKN coming out?? Ngaiti... kena or not acually? @_@?? Go thr play M16~~~ That lakia website n SMS zhun or not 1 ah??? Gudluck to those who are going~ Hope u meet new frens~ Dun bring back a malay GF or BF to sarawak enuf liao = = Say hi when u meet the momoks n ghosts oh~~ Mayb they'll bring u go flying n makan angin around d camp or into d jungle~ Gals kful toilet there alot of hidden cams n hp cameras~ (kful the TRAINERS there oso... hear alot of rape cases) Guys dun watch too much blu film~~~~~~

Most importantly.... Dont eat too much.... =.= seriously... Dont eat too much.....

So... Whr r u guys going after SPM? Work, College, Form 6... Man reli hope i can get a decent scholarship n fly away frm this LAND OF CORRUPTION (can u bliv it? Sarawak is described as land of corruption in WIKIPEDIA!!! Whole world noes... SIASOI AHH) But even if I can fly.. whr to? ZZZZ stil not reli sure wad I wanna do.... mayb next time u guys reli see me squatting at Atap Road help tourist draw portraits =.=

Cheh~ SPM 1st~

畫畫話～～～ 很就沒有畫鉛筆畫了～～～ 昨晚一畫就畫到要早上四點 =.= (pokkong ki) 哈哈哈畫了很大張的～～

首先，隨便隨便畫几個豬頭。。。。。。人家笑你畫得丑不要緊～好戲在後面～GGGGG

Then把畫的線條Blurr掉，慢慢加上光線的shading...

最後就是把圖畫整體“固體化”（是這麼說嗎？@_@）

鉛筆畫最重要就是搞好深淺，使看起來像3D~~~

别见怪啦～ 都是Game的人物來的～

簡單嗎？三步而已～ XD 有空試試看～ 給對ARTS有興趣的～～～～～～～

-Sunset Horizon-

LoL... Summer's almost over... Kekeke enjoy the warmth while there's still plenty of SUNSHINE!!!!!!~~ (zzzz talk cock... Malaysia 24 hrs 365 days also hot till wan die~ ZZZZ)

Hey guys guess which country these pics were taken from~ Nice or not? See their summer.
Sumwhr in Europe? Japan? Taiwan?? =P

ZZZZ... these pics were taken by the roadside at the jalan from Kuching - SriAman =.=